From the beginning of time people have used many forms or ways to amuse themselves from gestures in medieval times to us now taking our families places like the circus. This concept of amusement is commonly known as entertainment. By definition entertainment is any activity which provides a diversion or permits people to occupy themselves in their leisure time. There are many methods from which people pull out from to fill that void in their lives like taking up hobbies, for example; stamp collecting. Another way could be to play 3 rounds of golf in the blazing hot sun. Throughout time people have always found ways to keep busy in their leisure time. Entertainment comes in many forms, and during the course of our lives in many levels. Some of the forms of entertainment are dance, music, games, comedy, cinema and theatre, reading, chatting with friend and many more. The activities involved in entertainment vary depends upon the age group.
Some adults use a different form of entertainment to unwind after a long day of work. The history of this form dates back as far as ancient Babylonian times. In the US this style started in carnivals & burlesque theatre in 1896. Regular worker like farmers or even miners would get off and go into town to these parlors, to drink, listen to live music and see ladies giving them a little shimmy then taking it back. Some even went upstairs to continue the party for a fee. A lot of people felt like this form were disrespectful and the participants were going to burn in hell, where some others who didn’t even part take in it say it’s just innocent fun. The form which I’m referring is striptease which is an erotic dance where the performer gradually undresses either partly or completely in a seductive and sexually suggestive manner to entice the viewer. Over time striptease as evolved into a 13 billion dollar industry. In our country that venue that now show striptease on a regular basis in a totally different and are called strip clubs.
I’ve worked in strip clubs where they are also common know as go-go bars or the high-scale ones which are called gentlemen’s clubs for about 10 years now. It was a friend of a friend that brought me to my first one and things just progressed from there. But I can remember the first time I walked into a strip club. It was my sister’s boyfriends;’ sister who took me there, she was a dancer at the time and she invited me to go to work with her one day. The day was a Wednesday, about 8:00 at night when I walked into Alice’s’ Pioneer Pub a gentlemen’s club in Newark, NJ. At first sight I was shocked and amazed at the same time. The bar itself framed a circular pattern around the inside of the club with chairs circling around it as well. The colors of walls were green surrounding a wooden bar. Directly in the center was a catwalk like stage that had two golden poles at each end. This was anew experience for me and the introduction to a whole new world.
Anyhow during this past decade I learned a lot about this type of entertainment both good and bad. What I’ve underlined about it is that this form is all about perception; you see first you must understand the concept, which is to watch or play with females while giving them money. Over time the dimensions of that concept have changed from play to have & pay which is a whole other concept in itself. But before we talk about the now lets first talk about the then. The original concept of a strip club is a place where adults come to watch beautiful women move their body in a sexy & seductive way, while they enjoy good music and partake in great beverage. (Either alcohol or beer) Every establishment operates differently but have core values like each bar pays one to a few dancers to work there stage that’s called a feature in upscale clubs and a booking in other clubs. The females not being paid have to pay the club to work there which is called a tip-in; this can range from $10-$50 depending on the club. Each club has its own rules regarding their “workers” theses consist of dress, hygiene, and basic personal appearance. Meaning a dancer can not work at any club, only the clubs where they meet the requirements concerning their look, personality and performance and that varies from establishment to establishment.
The females in these clubs are called exotic dancers technically but I’ve put these females in sub- categories to fit the level of entertainment you find in the zone. The first one is the ideal name which is an erotic dancer she stays true to the definition she gives a little fantasy and that’s it’s. The second category is the performer she has a lot of tricks & visual stimulating acts and actually commands a crowd but she sometimes does thing that she’s not suppose to do to get the attention. The next category is not a nice one that is a stripper she is a female that only wants to show her body off it’s not about a fantasy or entertainment to her it’s just like bam here I am give me your money and sometimes she does whatever it takes to get it. The last category is that these females are placed in is the worst one , I call these girls UPs’- that stands for undercover prostitute she is the female that wears the uniform of a stripper but never entertains she just solicits sexual favors. Now we can not put the blame for the change of concept in this form of entertainment all on the females some of fault falls on the men also they are the customers.
I’ve composed sub-categories on the customers too they list is a little longer because they dictate the atmosphere of the females. The first type is the regular these men are usually married or very busy professionals that don’t have a lot of time to date so they use these clubs as places to see beautiful women and have a few drinks then they go home either to their family or an empty house. The second type is the flyer he’s usually a man that comes once and blue he spend a lot of money then disappears for a certain period of time. This kind of customer never looks for extra he just respect the original concept of entertainment. The next category of customers is the peeker this guy just drinks he sometimes isn’t even drinking alcohol never tips; he enjoys the lovely women around him but doesn’t contribute to concept of the club he’s in. The last group of customers you will encounter at a strip club is the nastiest they are the perverts these men come into the club with the intention of finding a woman to do extra stuff with, not even considering that that is not what the club is there for. Throughout my time of working in strip clubs I’ve met all these types of people their assistance to the evolution of this type of entertainment is profound and is what I feel is the essence of the change in concept. If they stayed true to the original plan the first idea, maybe there won’t be so much controversy around this venue at all.
There is a lot of argument against this form of entertainment its goes back to the bible toting missionaries of the early days in the parlors and has grown to be the right winged conservatives on Capitol Hill. A few reasons for the opposition for the strip clubs stem form the negative issues you can also find in some of these establishments. One of theses issues is underage dancers; legally a female has to be 18yrs. old to work at a strip club but sometimes you find young high school drop-out with fake ID trying to make a buck. Another issue is drugs, some females fall into this life and it’s really not for them so they start using drugs to cope with what they are doing. Surprisingly drugs are not hard to find in some of these clubs. The biggest issue that happens in some clubs is prostitution there are a lot of UP girls in these bars and they make the environment bad to be in. They are not following the rules and then that reflects on the clubs which is not fair. You that old saying one rotten apple don’t spoil the bunch, but in the strip clubs that apple helps you lose your business and for the bartenders like me you lose your job.
To fully understand the debate we must first know the law. Federal law places strip clubs in two categories either the club is topless or all/fully nude. The first category of topless is where the proprietor is allowed to have the dancers work with their breasts exposed but not their treasure boxes. The females walk around in g-string bottoms. Some states require the females to also wear pasties. (They are bedazzled covers for the nipples) The second category is all/fully nude which is when the proprietor are allowed to have there dancers to work completely nude. Some states subject all nude bars to additional restrictions like no alcohol clause meaning these clubs are not allowed to sell or serve alcohol. Another restriction is the no touch rule. This is really self explanatory but some states adopt this naturally as a way to control the entertainment.
Present-day there is still an on going battle between strip club owner and state officials one example of this struggle is the court case of Barnes vs. Glen Theatre, this case was about two businesses trying to add all nude dancers to there roaster. You see the establishment’s names were the Kitty Kat Inc. which was a strip club and the Glen Theatre Inc which was an adult store the idea was for them to join forces to become one big business adding nude entertainment but the Indiana government tried to ban the business, meaning close the club down. This case went all the way to the US Supreme Court in 1991 were they decided on behalf of the owner saying that a state can’t ban strip clubs because of the first amendment, which includes freedom of expression under the umbrella of freedom of speech.
On the flipside of the argument strip clubs are good places also. They allow adult to use their imaginations. They take couples to places of fantasy when a marriage is becoming stale. They permit undesirable men to feel desirable even if just for a short period of time. It allocates the fantasy union of consenting adults to have a little innocent fun. After all it is entertainment that was the concept for hard working people to be able to go to a place of good music, beautiful women and drinks. Its transition over time is just an outcry of society. But I think they serve a bigger purpose they can prevent some sexual assault. Think about if they were not here just envision all the perverts that are in the clubs out on the loose without a place to go to. Or the peekers, who would they be peeking at without some venue where they can legally peep at consenting lovely women there for their amusement. What would these men be doing? That would be a question we would be asking ourselves, so strip clubs serve a purpose.
Any who today is Saturday and time for me to go to work I still work in one of these strip clubs its not one of the bad ones but it still has the reputation of one. I work from open to close. I deal with every character I’ve talked about previously in this essay. The club I work at uses booking for their paid dancers its five sets of thirty-minutes. The performer does half an hour for the bar and half an hour for themselves. The customers come in many types and I generally enjoy them all. I get to meet new people every weekend as well as connect and form friendships with the repeaters. I can also serve a mean drink so if someday you’re in the area stop in and help you with a hand on tour.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Blog #22 Silk Road
This venue is not one I would strongly recommend for the class. But I would suggest this magazine for young writers. Silk Road is a magazine for the freedom writer, what I mean is that this is a venue for expression of thought. The types of writing you will find here are fiction, non-fiction, poetry, and translation. They also like pieces set in locations. They have a blog and they interview writers and authors too.
History
I couldn’t find that much information on the start of the magazine but I did figure out that it had to start in 2005, because their first issue went out in 2006. The location of this magazine is at the Pacific University in Oregon. This is where they started their commitment to publishing writers from anywhere of any age.
Example of Pieces:
I read three pieces two poems and one essay. The first poem was entitled, “Cinnamon”, it was how a young poet described the spice as he remembered it and what it was used for on this island. After reading it I couldn’t help feeling that there was a hidden meaning of homesick like he was from that island and missing the smell of the spice. The next poem I read was entitled “the Sanguine Earth”, this was about painting a picture of scene someone went through but I really didn’t get it until I read the acknowledgement at the bottom. The last piece I looked at was an essay entitled, “My Last Horse”, this was about this girls love of horses and how they are now unappreciated there a sub-story of a couple who falls in love on the ranch she talking about. Every piece I read gave me a feeling of different points of view but they had one thing in common with my writing which is each writer used symbolism just like me.
Submission guidelines
• You first have to enclose a two paragraph cover letter
• They except Prose entries which include: fiction, non-fiction, and memoirs but they can’t be more than 20 pages long typed double –space at a 12-point font
• If you submit Poetry it should be typed single-spaced and you can’t submit no more than 5 poems
• Also your submission should be in a DOC or RTF file
They accept submissions from August 1st to May 1st
There are two issues put out a year in the spring and the fall
You can submit via online to:
http://www.silkroadreview.org/submissions
Or send it to:
Silk Road Review
Pacific University
UC Box A119
2043 College Way
Forest Grove, Oregon 97116
History
I couldn’t find that much information on the start of the magazine but I did figure out that it had to start in 2005, because their first issue went out in 2006. The location of this magazine is at the Pacific University in Oregon. This is where they started their commitment to publishing writers from anywhere of any age.
Example of Pieces:
I read three pieces two poems and one essay. The first poem was entitled, “Cinnamon”, it was how a young poet described the spice as he remembered it and what it was used for on this island. After reading it I couldn’t help feeling that there was a hidden meaning of homesick like he was from that island and missing the smell of the spice. The next poem I read was entitled “the Sanguine Earth”, this was about painting a picture of scene someone went through but I really didn’t get it until I read the acknowledgement at the bottom. The last piece I looked at was an essay entitled, “My Last Horse”, this was about this girls love of horses and how they are now unappreciated there a sub-story of a couple who falls in love on the ranch she talking about. Every piece I read gave me a feeling of different points of view but they had one thing in common with my writing which is each writer used symbolism just like me.
Submission guidelines
• You first have to enclose a two paragraph cover letter
• They except Prose entries which include: fiction, non-fiction, and memoirs but they can’t be more than 20 pages long typed double –space at a 12-point font
• If you submit Poetry it should be typed single-spaced and you can’t submit no more than 5 poems
• Also your submission should be in a DOC or RTF file
They accept submissions from August 1st to May 1st
There are two issues put out a year in the spring and the fall
You can submit via online to:
http://www.silkroadreview.org/submissions
Or send it to:
Silk Road Review
Pacific University
UC Box A119
2043 College Way
Forest Grove, Oregon 97116
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Blog #21 Technique on Revision
After reading the different techniques on revising your essay it was one category that I felt could best serve the purpose I wanted to do. The technique I gravitated too is the one we used in class which was Revision:Beyond the Frame. We did the first exercise in class and the second exercise got me thinking , it fit right into what I wanted to do with my essay. The second exercise is adding elements to my essay which is what I was doing. Here's a list of the elements I will add in no particular order:
1. introduce my concept better
2. talk more about the reasons for the arguments against the clubs
3. describe how the clubs work
4. add two stories on days I worked my first day, and a special day
1. introduce my concept better
2. talk more about the reasons for the arguments against the clubs
3. describe how the clubs work
4. add two stories on days I worked my first day, and a special day
Blog#20 Which one to choose?
At first when I knew we had to revise either essay 3 or 4, my initial choice was essay #3. Reasons being that I felt that the essay wasn't complete and I wanted to finish my visual concept of my special place. But when I was working on the last essay #4 something that has been a part of my life for long time now I had similar feelings but for this essay the emotions were stronger. Right after I posted the essay I found myself having thoughts of what to do next. I had more ideas, a few new concepts I felt I could touch upon to help the point of the essay clearer. So that's why I am gonna recreate THE ENTERTAIN ZONE. Hopefully the new birth of the essay will fulfill my expectation.
Monday, November 23, 2009
The Entertainment Zone
From the beginning of time people have used many forms or ways to amuse themselves from gestures in medieval times to us now going to the circus. By definition entertainment is any activity which provides a diversion or permits people to occupy themselves in their leisure time. There are many methods from which people extract to fill that spot in their lives like taking up hobbies, for example; stamp collecting. Another way could be to play 3 rounds of golf in the blazing hot sun. We have always found ways to keep busy in a fun manner.
Some adults use a different form of entertainment to unwind after a long day of work. This form dates back as far as ancient Babylonian times. In the US this style started in carnivals & burlesque theatre in 1896. Regular worker like farmers or even miners would get off and go into town to these parlors, to drink, listen to live music and see ladies giving them a little shimmy then taking it back. Some even went upstairs to continue the party for a fee. A lot of people felt like this form were disrespectful and the participants were going to burn in hell, where some others who didn’t even part take in it say it’s just innocent fun. The form which I’m referring is striptease which is an erotic dance where the performer gradually undresses either partly or completely in a seductive and sexually suggestive manner to entice the viewer. Over time striptease as evolved into a 13 billion dollar industry. In our country that venue that now show striptease on a regular basis in a totally different and are called strip clubs.
I’ve worked in strip clubs where they are also common know as go-go bars or the high-scale ones which are called gentlemen’s clubs for about 10 years now. It was a friend of a friend that brought me to my first one and things just progressed from there, anyhow during this past decade I learned a lot about this type of entertainment both good and bad. What I’ve underlined about it is that this form is all about perception; you see first you must understand the concept, which is to watch or play with females while giving them money. Over time the dimensions of that concept have changed from play to have & pay which is a whole other concept in itself.
The females are called exotic dancers technically but I’ve put these females in sub- categories to fit the level of entertainment you find in the zone. The first one is the ideal name which is an erotic dancer she stays true to the definition she gives a little fantasy and that’s it’s. The second category is the performer she has a lot of tricks & visual stimulating acts and actually commands a crowd but she sometimes does thing that she’s not suppose to do to get the attention. The next category is not a nice one that is a stripper she is a female that only wants to show her body off it’s not about a fantasy or entertainment to her it’s just like bam here I am give me your money and sometimes she does whatever it takes to get it. The last category is that these females are placed in is the worst one , I call these girls UPs’- that stands for undercover prostitute she is the female that wears the uniform of a stripper but never entertains she just solicits sexual favors. Now we can not put the blame for the change of concept in this form of entertainment all on the females some of fault falls on the men also they are the customers.
I’ve composed sub-categories on them too they list is a little longer because they dictate the atmosphere of the females. The first type is the regular these men are usually married or very busy professionals that don’t have a lot of time to date so they use these clubs as places to see beautiful women and have a few drinks then they go home either to their family or an empty house. The second type is the flyer he’s usually a man that comes once and blue he spend a lot of money then disappears for a certain period of time. This kind of customer never looks for extra he just respect the original concept of entertainment. The next category of customers is the peeker this guy just drinks he sometimes isn’t even drinking alcohol never tips; he enjoys the lovely women around him but doesn’t contribute to concept of the club he’s in. The last group of customers you will encounter at a strip club is the nastiest they are the perverts these men come into the club with the intention of finding a woman to do extra stuff with, not even considering that that is not what the club is there for. Throughout my time of working in strip clubs I’ve met all these types of people their assistance to the evolution of this type of entertainment is profound and is what I feel is the essence of the change in concept. If they stayed true to the original plan the first idea, maybe there won’t be so much controversy around this venue at all.
There is a lot of argument against this form of entertainment its goes back to the bible toting missionaries of the early days in the parlors and has grown to be the right winged conservatives on Capitol Hill. To fully understand the debate we must first know the law. Federal law places strip clubs in two categories either the club is topless or all/fully nude. The first category of topless is where the proprietor is allowed to have the dancers work with their breasts exposed but not their treasure boxes. The females walk around in g-string bottoms. Some states require the females to also wear pasties. (They are bedazzled covers for the nipples) The second category is all/fully nude which is when the proprietor are allowed to have there dancers to work completely nude. Some states subject all nude bars to additional restrictions like no alcohol clause meaning these clubs are not allowed to sell or serve alcohol. Another restriction is the no touch rule. This is really self explanatory but some states adopt this natural as a way to control the entertainment. Present-day there is still an on going battle between strip club owner and state officials one example of this struggle is the court case of Barnes vs. Glen Theatre, this case was about two businesses trying to add all nude dancers to there roaster. You see the establishment’s names were the Kitty Kat Inc. which was a strip club and the Glen Theatre Inc which was an adult store the idea was for them to join forces to become one big business adding nude entertainment but the Indiana government tried to ban them. This case went all the way to the US Supreme Court in 1991 were they decided on behalf of the owner saying that a state can’t ban strip clubs because of the first amendment, which includes freedom of expression under the umbrella of freedom of speech.
On the flipside of the argument strip clubs are good places also. They allow adult to use their imaginations. They take couples to places of fantasy when a marriage is becoming stale. They permit undesirable men to feel desirable even if just for a short period of time. It allocates the fantasy union of consenting adults to have a little innocent fun. After all it is entertainment that was the concept for hard working people to be able to go to a place of good music, beautiful women and drinks. Its transition over time is just an outcry of society. But I think they serve a bigger purpose they can prevent some sexual assault. Think about if they were not here just envision all the perverts that are in the clubs out on the loose without a place to go to. Or the peekers, where would they be without some venue where they can legally peep at consenting lovely women there for their amusement. What would these men be doing? That would be a question we would be asking ourselves, so strip clubs serve a purpose.
Some adults use a different form of entertainment to unwind after a long day of work. This form dates back as far as ancient Babylonian times. In the US this style started in carnivals & burlesque theatre in 1896. Regular worker like farmers or even miners would get off and go into town to these parlors, to drink, listen to live music and see ladies giving them a little shimmy then taking it back. Some even went upstairs to continue the party for a fee. A lot of people felt like this form were disrespectful and the participants were going to burn in hell, where some others who didn’t even part take in it say it’s just innocent fun. The form which I’m referring is striptease which is an erotic dance where the performer gradually undresses either partly or completely in a seductive and sexually suggestive manner to entice the viewer. Over time striptease as evolved into a 13 billion dollar industry. In our country that venue that now show striptease on a regular basis in a totally different and are called strip clubs.
I’ve worked in strip clubs where they are also common know as go-go bars or the high-scale ones which are called gentlemen’s clubs for about 10 years now. It was a friend of a friend that brought me to my first one and things just progressed from there, anyhow during this past decade I learned a lot about this type of entertainment both good and bad. What I’ve underlined about it is that this form is all about perception; you see first you must understand the concept, which is to watch or play with females while giving them money. Over time the dimensions of that concept have changed from play to have & pay which is a whole other concept in itself.
The females are called exotic dancers technically but I’ve put these females in sub- categories to fit the level of entertainment you find in the zone. The first one is the ideal name which is an erotic dancer she stays true to the definition she gives a little fantasy and that’s it’s. The second category is the performer she has a lot of tricks & visual stimulating acts and actually commands a crowd but she sometimes does thing that she’s not suppose to do to get the attention. The next category is not a nice one that is a stripper she is a female that only wants to show her body off it’s not about a fantasy or entertainment to her it’s just like bam here I am give me your money and sometimes she does whatever it takes to get it. The last category is that these females are placed in is the worst one , I call these girls UPs’- that stands for undercover prostitute she is the female that wears the uniform of a stripper but never entertains she just solicits sexual favors. Now we can not put the blame for the change of concept in this form of entertainment all on the females some of fault falls on the men also they are the customers.
I’ve composed sub-categories on them too they list is a little longer because they dictate the atmosphere of the females. The first type is the regular these men are usually married or very busy professionals that don’t have a lot of time to date so they use these clubs as places to see beautiful women and have a few drinks then they go home either to their family or an empty house. The second type is the flyer he’s usually a man that comes once and blue he spend a lot of money then disappears for a certain period of time. This kind of customer never looks for extra he just respect the original concept of entertainment. The next category of customers is the peeker this guy just drinks he sometimes isn’t even drinking alcohol never tips; he enjoys the lovely women around him but doesn’t contribute to concept of the club he’s in. The last group of customers you will encounter at a strip club is the nastiest they are the perverts these men come into the club with the intention of finding a woman to do extra stuff with, not even considering that that is not what the club is there for. Throughout my time of working in strip clubs I’ve met all these types of people their assistance to the evolution of this type of entertainment is profound and is what I feel is the essence of the change in concept. If they stayed true to the original plan the first idea, maybe there won’t be so much controversy around this venue at all.
There is a lot of argument against this form of entertainment its goes back to the bible toting missionaries of the early days in the parlors and has grown to be the right winged conservatives on Capitol Hill. To fully understand the debate we must first know the law. Federal law places strip clubs in two categories either the club is topless or all/fully nude. The first category of topless is where the proprietor is allowed to have the dancers work with their breasts exposed but not their treasure boxes. The females walk around in g-string bottoms. Some states require the females to also wear pasties. (They are bedazzled covers for the nipples) The second category is all/fully nude which is when the proprietor are allowed to have there dancers to work completely nude. Some states subject all nude bars to additional restrictions like no alcohol clause meaning these clubs are not allowed to sell or serve alcohol. Another restriction is the no touch rule. This is really self explanatory but some states adopt this natural as a way to control the entertainment. Present-day there is still an on going battle between strip club owner and state officials one example of this struggle is the court case of Barnes vs. Glen Theatre, this case was about two businesses trying to add all nude dancers to there roaster. You see the establishment’s names were the Kitty Kat Inc. which was a strip club and the Glen Theatre Inc which was an adult store the idea was for them to join forces to become one big business adding nude entertainment but the Indiana government tried to ban them. This case went all the way to the US Supreme Court in 1991 were they decided on behalf of the owner saying that a state can’t ban strip clubs because of the first amendment, which includes freedom of expression under the umbrella of freedom of speech.
On the flipside of the argument strip clubs are good places also. They allow adult to use their imaginations. They take couples to places of fantasy when a marriage is becoming stale. They permit undesirable men to feel desirable even if just for a short period of time. It allocates the fantasy union of consenting adults to have a little innocent fun. After all it is entertainment that was the concept for hard working people to be able to go to a place of good music, beautiful women and drinks. Its transition over time is just an outcry of society. But I think they serve a bigger purpose they can prevent some sexual assault. Think about if they were not here just envision all the perverts that are in the clubs out on the loose without a place to go to. Or the peekers, where would they be without some venue where they can legally peep at consenting lovely women there for their amusement. What would these men be doing? That would be a question we would be asking ourselves, so strip clubs serve a purpose.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Blog #18 Important Places
Growing up there were a few places that holds special places in my heart each place for its own reason. One of the first places I will always travel back to in my memory as an extremely important is my grandmother's house. When I was younger her house was my safe place whenever my mother & I went thru our bull---- I would escape to that place. This sanctuary was filled with unconditional love and understanding something I felt didn't live in my home. Another spot I can recall is when I used to visit my family in Baltimore, Maryland. Especially my Aunt Elsie"s house she took no shorts from anyone but she taught me a lot, going there in summer was my city/country retreat. The next place I put on my list is my cousin house in Windsor,North Carolina, they build this house from the ground up and I always used them as inspiration for my own future home. The place on my list is the bathroom, now i know this might be a little strange but its my quiet place the sound of the running water in the pipes plus the the silence of the dark when the lights are off helps me focus and gain clarity when things become foggy. the last place on my list is my first apartment it was an attic apartment with one and half bedrooms but me and my first born were comfortable. It was small but it was mine and I maintained it by myself it was myfirst milestone in my independent life.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
A Window
Have you ever had something that whenever you seen it the anger monster in your head would be calmed. Whenever you seen it the pure company of it took you to a relaxing place. Whenever life seemed unbearable that thing helped you see hope. While I have had an object like that for the most part of my life, it’s never been exactly the same you see it comes in many shapes and sizes its home is in millions of places and in every place it has a different meaning, a different purpose. But its purpose for me as always was the same. It’s given me dreams, questions, answers, basically created the determined mind I have today, shaped the inquisitive attitude people love to endure. That thing in which I am talking about has a usually square-like shape even though I have met round ones, and rectangular ones, even triangular ones , but for the most part it’s been square. It has transparent eyes that you see right through help you picture options and maintain a view into what going on around you, yet some people cannot see, it show pathways to different places and opportunities, it gives warning to unexpected guests. It gives solitude when you need to think or focus on a solution for a problem.
Yes the object I am talking about is a window. As I child I grew up in what most people refer to as the projects, technique named housing complex. These places were brick and cement tiny apartment building with about three floors some having four with three to four apartment on a floor. It had super thin walls but nice big windows. And the one I lived in was close to the highway which I could see from my window. There were many times where I looked out that window and wondered where the cars I saw were from or even where there were going. How I so wanted to go with them to see other places others things besides nosey neighbors and ignorant little boys which was what I felt like I was surrounded with. For the most part my bedroom window was my crystal ball it helped me see into the future.
One day in 1990 the year my baby sister was born, it was about the spring time because I had class the day after the event happened and it was the day she came home from the hospital I was told to clean up the house cause the new baby was coming home. Now most kids would be upset that a new sibling was on the way into their space, but I was excited to have another person to mold into my liking especially because it didn’t work with the other heffer I had to call my sister. But here’s my chance to fix my previous mistakes. Any way I cleaned from the time I got home from school until about 10 minutes before they came in the door. In which time I planted myself at the living room window filled with my mother’s I am jungle garden so I could see them come up the porch stairs, I was tired but still excited; I’d cleaned up my mother’s room so that she and the baby would be comfortable. But when my aunt saw what I did I got yelled at.” Why did you touch this and why did you touch that”, she said “I had everything where it needed to be” She went and told my mother what happened and my mother told her to leave me alone. “She tried”, my mother said so I next went and washed my hands so I could hold my baby-sister. I went back into my mother’s room sat myself firmly in a chair and looked at my aunt to hand me my baby sister, she said ,” what you think your waiting for, your too young to hold the baby now go do some homework or something”. I stood in my mother’s door way puzzled at first because before my aunt went to pick up the pair she promised me that I if I cleaned the way my mother likes it she would make sure I could hold the baby. You see in my family only adult family members are allowed to hold newborns unless or until the infant is three months old, so pre-teen I, holding the baby was a big deal. Anyway I was crashed that my aunt went back on her word so I went in my bedroom to cry. After a few minutes of boo-whoin on my bed I got up and went to my window I must have saw about a thousand cars that night and which I tried to count different state license plates that little game I played with myself distracted me from my initial problem it calmed me down to a point that was able to suck it up and still help my mother with the difficult first night home
Yes the object I am talking about is a window. As I child I grew up in what most people refer to as the projects, technique named housing complex. These places were brick and cement tiny apartment building with about three floors some having four with three to four apartment on a floor. It had super thin walls but nice big windows. And the one I lived in was close to the highway which I could see from my window. There were many times where I looked out that window and wondered where the cars I saw were from or even where there were going. How I so wanted to go with them to see other places others things besides nosey neighbors and ignorant little boys which was what I felt like I was surrounded with. For the most part my bedroom window was my crystal ball it helped me see into the future.
One day in 1990 the year my baby sister was born, it was about the spring time because I had class the day after the event happened and it was the day she came home from the hospital I was told to clean up the house cause the new baby was coming home. Now most kids would be upset that a new sibling was on the way into their space, but I was excited to have another person to mold into my liking especially because it didn’t work with the other heffer I had to call my sister. But here’s my chance to fix my previous mistakes. Any way I cleaned from the time I got home from school until about 10 minutes before they came in the door. In which time I planted myself at the living room window filled with my mother’s I am jungle garden so I could see them come up the porch stairs, I was tired but still excited; I’d cleaned up my mother’s room so that she and the baby would be comfortable. But when my aunt saw what I did I got yelled at.” Why did you touch this and why did you touch that”, she said “I had everything where it needed to be” She went and told my mother what happened and my mother told her to leave me alone. “She tried”, my mother said so I next went and washed my hands so I could hold my baby-sister. I went back into my mother’s room sat myself firmly in a chair and looked at my aunt to hand me my baby sister, she said ,” what you think your waiting for, your too young to hold the baby now go do some homework or something”. I stood in my mother’s door way puzzled at first because before my aunt went to pick up the pair she promised me that I if I cleaned the way my mother likes it she would make sure I could hold the baby. You see in my family only adult family members are allowed to hold newborns unless or until the infant is three months old, so pre-teen I, holding the baby was a big deal. Anyway I was crashed that my aunt went back on her word so I went in my bedroom to cry. After a few minutes of boo-whoin on my bed I got up and went to my window I must have saw about a thousand cars that night and which I tried to count different state license plates that little game I played with myself distracted me from my initial problem it calmed me down to a point that was able to suck it up and still help my mother with the difficult first night home
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